I CAN’T HELP BUT KEEP FALLING
I have loved, I have lost …
In all my life I have loved and lost love but I have never felt the way that I feel for her, it’s not in the touch, the feel not even the kiss. It all that and more, just thinking that a man like me, broken, half-hearted would be lucky enough to have the attention of an angel like her, the funny thing it started with the word “NO” as my heart recognized that at moment it was home.
Walking down memory lane to the first day I laid eyes on her, she had an amazing smile a warm heart, and just like that, she was loved by everyone. She had all my attention, she wasn't even trying and that moment when she said the words hello I knew from the deep edges in me that it was more than I could ever hope for, that it was ought to be a new chapter, a new step in the right direction, a vision of trust, prosperity, and purpose, a journey that only led my heart to one place and one place only HOME.
As my head and heart continued to battle between what words to say, and things that could give me the confidence to not get tongue-tied and just speak out to her, I found myself asking her for her contacts not knowing that from that first text between me and her, it was a journey to the rest of my life.
“Hey you” was the first word I texted her knowing that it was a shot that I wasn’t expecting to land, she was pure-hearted, not to be tamed, all my fears just vanished after those two words and the journey began, unknowingly that our hearts were yearning for each other, we just started conversating, it was just like catching up with an old friend who you knew all your life. Little did we know in those few texts from 8 am to 12 am, the late-night texts, the midnight calls, the morning prayers to the unforgettable memories on the little smiles she had and the smirk she did, to the moment she got lost puppy dog us to looking at me, I was on the hook, she knew what she wanted, she needed and she deserved, it was just a matter of time that our hearts that were beating separately will start a rhythm that was entwined and synchronize with one another.
“I want you to unravel me” that is what she said every time her eyes were locked into mine, confidently insecure about my feelings to her, she was sure and I mesmerized. I keep a lot to myself because I was broken, like an injured bird who had lost hope when it came to love, but after my heart laid eyes on her, it screamed with joy, HAPANA, you’re home.
Few steps down our journey I was half-hearted lost not knowing when we ought or will be something, and as I was lost in thought, she had the audacity to ask me out just me and her, to an island unknown, with the ocean by our side and the breeze gently creating goosebumps on our skin, and as I arrived looking at her, beautiful than ever, long-haired with red her pants by the sand, she looked at me and I knew that with her let the journey begin. The music was calming, the breeze was freezing and our hearts were in sync, I was to unravel that getting lost in those few moments, my palm was on her face and my lips gently pressed into her, as my heart spoke more saying now this is the one you are sure of, and after that unforgettable kiss, where time literary froze, everything was just calm and quiet and all I heard from her were the words “are you sure” and as I kissed I was more than sure, pulling her closer to me, I whispered in my heart out loud it's going to be a journey to forver.
So it began me, together, down the sunset we started an adventure, one that's unforgetable.